Wednesday, December 29, 2010

An everlasting commitment

"I shall maintain my covenant between myself and you, and your descendants after you, generation after generation, as a covenant in perpetuity, to be your God and the God of your descendants after you." (Gen 17:7)

A covenant is a sacred promise between God and His people. A covenant in perpetuity is an everlasting commitment in which God promise to give abundant blessing to Abraham and his descendants.

We, living in the modern world and face changes everyday, know that keeping commitment is uneasy. Being affected by culture and environment, values change, attitudes and perspectives change...all these make keeping promise and commitment difficult. We see so many divorces between couples, so many relationships break up, international alliances change from time to time, business or working partners form and break, even friendship can fade out...However, God is always a faithful God and give us blessings all the time. This covenant and commitment will not change according to time and place.

However, sometimes we may take for granted God's commitment and even not aware His abundant blessing for us. I remember in the first few weeks of this past semester, I was so stressful and anxious with the two courses which require weekly papers and the Latin course which required me to memorize so many new rules and words. At a certain point, I complained to God and had doubt in my study here. Why God sent me here and did not give me enough strength and ability to do good. I worried that I could not write well in my papers. I worked overnight several times in order to submit the short papers in time. However, I did not get the result as expected. After two weeks, I adjusted my study time-table and employ another way to work on my weekly papers. I started making note-cards to learn Latin. Gradually, I saw improvement in my work. Now, the semester is over. When I look back, I see the abundant blessings from God. I aware that the Holy Spirit is helping me and supporting me all through the way. I know that God is always faithful to his commitment; it's me who walk away and do not have enough faith in Him.
After this semester, I affirm more that God is guiding me and give me a direction in my life. I'll continue to try my best to study hard and keep on the track so as to equip myself for my future ministry. When I have doubt again in the future, I'll remember the covenant and blessings that God promise to give us. I will do my part to keep this covenant because a relationship is always both-sided.


Tuesday, December 28, 2010

2010 Year end reflection

Time flies and my third semester at Berkeley finished on Dec 17, 2010. It was a busy and tough semester for me. I took three courses as last year but the workload was much heavier, especially when I have to pick up a new language—Latin. Luckily the professor is very nice and does not give us too much pressure. It is a two-semester course and I have to continue in the next semester. My other two courses, one on “Theology and Ethics,” another on “Faith in Human Rights,” are interesting and inspiring, but with many readings and assignments. Since I tried to cover all the required readings every week and handed in all my assignments on time, I had to study almost seven days a week. Anyway, I get it done and I learnt a lot during the process. The professors of these two courses said I did well. I am especially happy when the professor of the Theology class told me at the very end of the class that I did well on a difficult topic in my final paper. My paper topic is “Jon Sobrino’s Notion of Discipleship – Examining his Understanding of Jesus, God and Human Person.” I also received good comments for my weekly papers. From this, I learnt that one must work hard in order to get reward and cannot depend on luck. I understand better the saying “path may be difficult but will be rewarding” after experiencing this semester.

For my human rights class, the Noble Peace Prize issue and the prosecution of Zhao Lian-hai, the victim of the baby milk issue, inspired me to write a paper on “Human rights in China—Examining the Human Rights Values in the Chinese Confucian Tradition.” Both of these papers allow me to reflect further about doing theology and ethics in my own social context. I really thank God to give me the chance to go through this process and give me enough strength and energy to complete my work. I also thank God to give me encouragement and support through my family, teachers and friends, including yours.


This year, I am still living in the student dormitory on campus. Apart from Americans, some students are international students or visiting scholars, from Korea, Indonesia, Taiwan, Brazil, and Poland. I get acquaintance with some of them and became good friends.

There are also a few students from HK living on various dorms in the campus, mostly from other Christian denominations. We have gatherings from time to time to eat and chat. I learnt more about the protestant churches. It's a relaxing time with fun and we can use Cantonese to chat. We toured around San Francisco and Oakland in the past week when the semester finished.

In the next semester, I will start preparing my comprehensive examination proposal, a step before taking the exam and writing the dissertation. I will not take too many courses. I will just take Latin and a reading course (one to one independent study on special topic to help me preparing the proposal). I may stay here during summer to continue preparing the exam and may go back to HK a bit later. I hope I can get the exam proposal passed by the end of next semester so that I can spend next year working on the three to four examinations. My examinations will include Catholic moral theology with focus on social ethics, Asian contextual theology, Chinese Social Thought with focus on Confucian ethics.

In July, I went to Trent, Italy to attend a conference on theological ethics. It was an eye-opening experience for me and I learnt a lot through listening to various paper presentation on ethics.

In November, I went to Rome to attend the meeting of the Pontifical Council for Justice and Peace. I presented a report on Caritas in Veritate (Pope Benedict’s most recent social teaching document) from the Asian perspective. I have spent several days working on the report and luckily It was well received. There is a new chairperson, Archbishop Turkson, a bishop from Ghana. He is very nice and tried to give everyone a chance to speak during the meeting. I also met a former student of the seminary and is my friend now who is in Rome and had a long chat with her. She is studying her STL (Licentiate of Sacred Theology) in the Gregorian University. Both of us are trying to work hard to meet all the challenges of our studies.

With all the challenges and study workload, I try to keep my life balance and healthy. I have spiritual direction with a Franciscan sister every three to four weeks. She is a great companion in my faith journey and gives me lots of encouragement and support. I attend mass every Tuesday in either the Jesuit school or Franciscan school. I also eat more fruits and vegetables and try to do some stretching exercises every day so as to lessen my shoulder and neck pain.

I understand that those of you who are reading this post must be working very hard and very busy too. Let’s pray for each other. I wish you have a blessed new year!

Monday, December 27, 2010

God take risk for each of us

"What is your opinion? If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them goes astray, will he not leave the ninety-nine in the hill and go in search of the stray?" (Mt 18:12)

From a human perspective, it doesn't make sense. From the value of a market-oriented society, it doesn't make sense even more. The risk seems too high to take as one may lose the other sheep when the shepherd goes elsewhere to search, and still he may not be able to find that lost one. The opportunity cost is too high! Is it worth? But God has a different point of view. God value each of us and love each of us. God would not abandon us and leave us alone when we are in helpless and uncertainties. Nothing can stop God from searching us when God know us lost the way.

When God found the lost one, he would not confine him in a certain way. God would still give the lost one freedom and he may go astray again. Then, God would take the risk and search for the lost one again. I heard this message from a priest in a mass. What a powerful message! It's so true to us, isn't it? God use his love to move us until we choose to go back to him and choose his house as our home to stay in forever. God won't use force to ask us to return; nor He use law to abide us to follow Him. God use the power of love to touch us so that we turn to Him willingly and respond to His love in a concrete way.

There are so many times that we follow our own way to do whatever we want to do, to treat other people as we like and may hurt them, to seek for pleasure and satisfy our own desire and not caring the need of others. God know all these and give us freedom to do so. But He use various means to remind us that we did wrong and guide us to the right track. Sometimes we aware our fault but sometimes not. God wait for us to return patiently until one day we are touched by His love. God is always ready here to forgive our sins and welcome us back home.

May God grant us this sense of awareness and strength to turn to God and respond to His love!